Changes!!!!!!!!!!

OK super busy and SO SO SO much has been happening. AND I don't mean the normal going to the folks, camping and little adventures that are our life. THIS IS BIG changes!!!

First HUGE change is I am getting laid off from Butler. My heart is broken and I NEVER thought this day would come. I always planned on working her till I could retire and Taylor would go to school here. The whole college had to do budget cuts and my department loses me and my boss. SO the job hunt begins.

Second HUGE change is Taylor and I are moving in with Tony and Baylee!!!! This has been a long time coming and we have  been talking about it for a while now. This is a good enough time as any! The girls are so excited and so are we. We have been working out the details with bills, rooms, moving, toys, rules.. and there is so much we will figure out along the way. But I can't tell you how much this make me smile! I love Tony and Baylee so so so much and this is just the next step in the rest of our happy little lives!!!

So here is to a month of packing and job hunting!!!!

Happy and Busy

OH my body is tired!!! I have worked out and walked more this week than I have in a long time and it is AWESOME! I am really motivated to keep going and it feels so good. I am not sure what took me so long to WAKE UP but I am awake now and making a healthier life!

Plans for the weekend:
Tonight I am going to cook a healthy yummy dinner for Tay and Tony. Not sure what yet, but it will be GOOD!
Saturday I think Tay and I are going to go watch Baylee's soccer game and then Tony, Tay and I will head to Wichita. Might hit up Botanica or the Great Plains Nature Center. Who knows, but there will be lots of walking and sunshine.
Sunday Taylor and I will be coloring eggs because I don't have her on Easter weekend. I love me some boiled eggs!!

Healthy Life

I am feeling so good! I have been eating cleaner and moving more than I have in months and it is WORKING because I lost 5 pounds in a week. I have been taking every opertunity to hit the YMCA and take walks. Last weekend I took two long walks in one day. First one was 2.25 miles in the morning with my sweet little puppy and the second was 2.25 miles in the afternoon with my boyfriend's daughter. I am thinking she might be a good walking partner :)

I have really been enjoying planning my meals out and prepping them on Sundays. No excuses anymore. I have a long way to go but am ready to face it and conquer it!

Round two

Taylor has been enjoying first grade but still has some issues with reading. We are working on it and the school even showed us a website where she can go to in the evenings or on weekends to help her skills. I try to read to her every night and let her read to me. We have parent teacher conferences tonight and I am looking forward to it. I always love to hear about what kind of little student she is becoming.

Last night we snuggled on the couch and enjoyed the second Hunger Games movie (Catching Fire) Well we started it a little too late because for some reason we lost power. Anyway we didn’t get to finish it so tonight we will pick up where we left off. Nothing is better than TWO snuggle nights with my girl.

Old Soul

Update

So just a little daily update. Taylor and I have been working on spelling in the evenings.

She is just like her mommy and gets so frustrated so fast. But when I find creative ways to 

study and test she seems to do better. We come home and she plays while I make dinner, 

do dishes. We work on spelling and sometimes simple addition, subtraction. Dinner, Bath 

time then she plays a little more. She reads a book to me every night and then I read one 

to her. Then lights out!. Then it is time for me to make a cup of tea and read magazines, or 

watch the TV I want to watch. I enjoy our little evenings they are sometimes stressful 

and chaotic ( when she isn't in the mood to work ) but we pull through. I am excited 

because Friday is Valentine’s Day and I am helping at her class party. I always volunteer to 

help at Halloween and Valentine’s day. It is so fun!!!

Stay

We are working on things. We are going to make this work. Talking talking talking. Growing growing growing. When the love of your life comes to you and asks you to please don't go.

You don't go. So I listen to my heart and stay.

Positive

Thursday is showing little sprinkles of promise. Today is going to be a good day. This weekend is going to be a good weekend. I may be broke but there are good things in my future so I need to focus on those! I am every month I am getting closer and closer to paying off my car and credit card. I still have a ways to go but seeing that number get smaller and smaller makes me have hope that someday I will be (pretty much) debt free!!!

I have Taylor this weekend and that makes me happy! She has a birthday party to attend on Sunday. I think it is going to be cold so not sure what else we can do. Have to think of a craft or something to keep us busy!! Yesterday was 100 day at school so the kids are supposed to wear or bring something that shows the number 100.

She and I made this lovely crown with 100 glitter dots. It was messy but FUN.

Motions

The holidays came and went and now I am broke. With the cold weather making photography slow I am literally counting my change to get through to the next month. This isn't fun and makes me sad. Will my life always be like this? Will I be stuck in this little apartment barely scraping by for the rest of my life?

I wanted so much more for myself.

Spending my 30’s single and broke isn't what I pictured. I had dreams like everyone else, of a life filled with love, a happy family, a house, a yard, vacations, back yard BBQ, growing old with someone.

I know there are TONS of people worse off.  I am only 33 and there are still lots ahead of me (I hope) but today I am in the dumps feeling like this life is sucking me down. Pushing me into a place I will be stuck in forever.

So for now I am just breathing, going through the motions. What else can I do?  Life goes on.